Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Honestly Me

A lot has changed since my last post, but I feel it is necessary to give you all a very sincere, and unfiltered honest explanation. Why? Because those who are willing to expose themselves are often met by a multitude of critics who hide behind attacks of questions, but those answering them are also having a greater impact on the rest of the world who recognize achievement.

As many who knew me heard, I lost my mother to a two year battle with cancer last August. Initially I was numb, and the road trip I took shortly after helped me run. Having gone to school in Hawaii, I was used to being away from home for the months that make up a typical semester, but returning just before Christmas made me realize how noticeable the absence of her presence was. That, along with the poor timing of a then necessary breakup to a woman I loved dearly, accounted for the deepest depression of my life that I am only a little more than a month removed from, but still dealing with every day.

I say this because the accumulating accolades of traveling extensively through Greece, South America, our own country, completing a charity bicycle ride from Texas to Alaska, running a Wine Club, holding positions in other organizations, and graduating with a degree from Hawaii was formerly the basis for the confidence that I rode high over all of the tough times in between. As I found from irreplaceable loss though, confidence can be stripped to nothing. Therefore, upon learning to embrace the brokenness, I was able to use that to build a much stronger foundation, rather than let it destroy me.

I say this because many can't associate with cycling over 4,000 miles in one summer, or a recklessly free spirited life style, but everyone can associate with the sometimes overwhelming trials and troubles of life's grind. However, when we examine ourselves honestly, and realize what is truly important, we take the greatest step towards a better life, and that is getting our minds positively geared first. I say this because as Re-Beats, I hope we can do that together.

2 comments:

  1. And such a blog could not have come at a better time! I feel your energy in much more than an empathetic way. Let prayers of faith revive your spirit and intertwine wings upon your spine to empower your destiny to show itself, divine! Ready for a new Season?? I have a really good idea!!

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  2. You have a gift with writing Tyler! Your mom would still be so proud of you! After losing my Dad in January, I can relate to the void... I only wish I could express it so well.

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